Where Are You Now?
Sometimes I think of you
and wonder where you area
nd if you think of me on lonely nights
or dream about me when there's nothing left to dream
I don't expect you to miss mea
nd I know the phone will never ring
with your voice hanging on the other line
but I have to know
if I'm in your thoughts
or if you forgot about me
like you promised you never would
I can't bear the thought
of what we shared
being nothing than a footnote
in a forgotten chapter of your life
and even though I only think of you
during the loneliest hours of the night
Part of me is still hoping
that you're thinking of me
when I'm busy not thinking of you
So shed not a tear for what we lost
nor heave a sigh for what could have been
Just let me grace your thoughts
when the night hangs long and low
and everything will be right when we awake
in the worlds we've created
in the many years we've been apart
a beautiful poem i got from the net. reminds me of how i feel. i wrote something similiar. just that i was surprised that someone would feel the same. i guess i'm not alone... *smiles* if only he could read this and know how i feel.
a friend was blogging about how would she die or how would she wanted to die, to be cremated and to be remembered. what a long thought. then what would i want?
i want nothing.
if to make him love me back is for me to be not here anymore. i would willingly do it.
if i died tomorrow, would anyone care? other than my parents.. if i died tomorrow, it'll be like a spec of rain drop out of sight. no one will notice.
hmm.. back to negative thoughts at the moment? well, doesnt matter. i'm sure i'll go through this period of time again, again, and again... *sighs*
watched Charlie & THe Chocolate Factory yesterday. Brought me back to my crave for chocolates. Go watch it..! a really amazing, fantastic and wonderful show! oh yeah, not to mention, i saw the preview of Corpse Bride. an animation by Tim Burton.. so exciteeed... can't wait for it to be out..!!!
We both had not been to the cinemas for a long time, well, that was what he said. The last time i was at TimesSquare watching a movie was with Adrian. After the breakup, after 4 months, the both of us are back here again in this place, at the cinema. It felt weird as i sat beside him, not holding hands or whispering to each other. Yes, we're just friends now. And bear with it i have to.
in this world, i feel lonely. there's something missing from the corner of my heart. i still feel lonely even when i'm surrounded by family and friends.
there's an emptiness i've to bear with..
